love wins

love wins

this job that i took on again is so draining... sometimes i don't know why i commit to things that i know won't be fun. i didn't even go in on the first day when i was supposed to. and i didn't even call saying i wasn't going in. i hate confrontation sometimes.

i woke up that morning and fell back asleep cuz i didn't feel well, upon waking up at noon, i realized my stepdad was out shoveling. meaning he was home from work. meaning he was home because he was sick. since he was sick for the majority of the weekend. meaning that i needed to shovel. well, i didn't need to, he could do it. but i needed to. so i told him to come inside, get some tea, i'd grab a quick breakfast and get to shoveling. my car was plowed into our driveway. it took me 2 hours to shovel it. then i took a shower.

at first i put off calling out of work. then i just forgot about it. i hate confrontation sometimes. i also hate parties sometimes. i like parties with really loud personalities. that way i can bounce off of them. tonight there weren't many loud personalities... last night there were. while tonight was a lot of fun, i think last night's was more fun... more loudness, more loud music... less uncomfortable. less silence. though, i love these people. i love both groups, i tend to have more fun with the group from last night. maybe i'll get better at this whole people thing.

i dunno, i think i'm in a kind of dreary mood right now. i have no reason to be. other than being tired. but i'm only up so i can call adrienne and make sure she got home okay. i wish i could drive her home every night. i wish she lived close enough for me to be able to do that.

now it's bed time. but i have comfort in the fact that God is here. and tomorrow i'm leaving work early to go hang out with adrienne in a cute little coffee shop somewhere. and maybe swing dance.

love wins. i'm sure of it.